feeding frenzy
May 26, 2005been knocking myself out to sleep with marathon episodes and drowning afterwards in the soundtracks. pushing myself to eke out even a meager paragraph. work is eating me alive again.
so i stuff my head with fictional memories and force my heart to remember by watching those episodes in fairy tale format. where the new person wins over history.
because i seem to have lost the capacity to feel intensity and rage.
and because deep, deep, deep inside i know.
i am not at all perfectly happy.
(on the other hand, who’d want to be perfectly happy? people like that die early.)
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